2 Mayndarin 2019 : Blog

The easy task for Mayndarin is to have a glass of water which contains lemon juice ice cubes with each lunch. This is as well as the usual glass of water with the evening meal.

A more difficult task, one which actually takes me quite a lot of effort, is to have a really good look at the new body shape. Why would that be difficult? Because it involves accepting a loss of the old shape. Yes it was a larger shape, and I am sure to like the new smaller shape better once I get used to it, but it is my larger shape that I am losing and I don’t like losing anything, not even kilograms.

Loose clothing doesn’t really impinge on my consciousness too much. Despite weighing a whole lot less, if I close my eyes I still feel exactly the same. Even if I open them I still feel exactly the same. What does impinge on my consciousness is what I see reflected back at me from a mirror. That has an powerful emotional impact. I want to see me, not some thin, stick person, obviously somebody else.

Due to the slow changes of the body shape over years as the weight is slowly lost, Maydarin’s task is designed to especially to reduce the amount of emotional impact looking in the mirror has. So it is off to visit clothing shops. I visit as wide a range of clothing shops as possible, the more the better. It includes opportunity shops, large department stores and small, expensive boutiques.

Now lets have no confusion about this. The task is not to buy new clothes, although that is not ruled out if something is really appealing. The task is to stare in the mirrors whilst trying on clothes. Well lit dressing rooms are to be particularly sought out, but less well lit ones can also have value. The task is to admire what is reflected back, an individual who is a bit smaller, yes, but still remains “Me”.

Isn’t it a great feeling to look better in the clothes that are already in wardrobe. Well fitting clothes, ones that are slightly loose rather than ones which are stretched so very tight. I think the time has arrived to replace some the super loose ones.